Missed Ya Much

Heeey Guuuys!!!

I've missed you soo much!

I guess Im off my lil' hiatus.

Got a lil' story to tell ::snickering::
*Or maybe I shouldnt laugh cuz I DAMN sure wasnt laughing at the time*

Buuut anyhoo..

As you all know my babes has entered the state of GA until we get our move on back home to CT.

Soooo....last Wed Im all excited and ish cant wait to see him and what have you.
Ride down the street..I see him sittin' down talkin' to some random dude..aight no problem.

There was no place to stop so we went down a lil further to turn around.

Now..this is when my self tells me "Self?? He is STILL sitting on the ground chattin' it up with ol' dude and thats NOT like him"
I say this to myself because I know my babes and he spotted us as well..he usually would stand up and put 1 hand in the air to make sure we saw him..but...Naaah..my babe is STILL on the ground.

So my mother hops out to see whats what while Im on the phone with my brother *whom we had to pick up later that nite from the Airport* making sure we all were on the same page and blah blah blah.

I hang up with my brother because K.D STILL had not come to the car!
I knew something was WRONG....VERY WRONG!!

I get out my mom has this look on her face...and my heart is RACIN' y'all RACIN'!!

She tells me he got caught with some smoke *weed* and they were detaining my baby!!
Im like NOOOOOOOOO!!!

Aw LAWD NOT MA" BABY!!!


I go over to him and he looks soo pitiful y'all..my babe is not a trouble maker nor is he the type to be in a whole mess of ish.
Not to mention his embarrassment because my mom hopped out before me *sigh*



Also....the random dude he was talking to was undercover!! *GO FIGURE!*
He was a nice guy and all..he even made my mom believe it was a small amount of tree's
when it REALLY was a fuggin' 'O!!!
*an ounce of weed for ma' slow folk..lol*

I have NO idea what he was thinking..I didnt even want to try..I just knew that he didnt need an "I told ya' so" from me...he needed my support and to know that I am his woman and will have his back whether it be good or bad.

The F'd up part is that we sat in the detention center from 12:30 p.m to 7:30 p.m!!

Now that just dont make NO DAMN SENSE!!!

Why the HELL does it take THAT long to fingerprint someone and get them booked?!?!?!

I mean...we had the money to bond him out which was a damn SHAM too!!!

THEN!!!

This damn Sheriff lady says to MY son *who was gettin' antsy b/c we've been there an ENTIRE work shift!!! He's 3 STUPID!! What were you expecting?!?!* "Ay Ay Ay wid all dat noise!"

Was she fuggin' jokin'?!?!?

Cuz um ya' gurl was next to be booked and processed...I kindly stated to her "We got this hon'..your input is not needed"

Ugh!!! I wanted to SCREAM!!!












By the end of the nite I was feeling like....


to GA and their whack ass system!!

HOME SWEET HOME!!!

HERE I COME!!!



Sidebar: All is well though we went to court the next morning and his case was dismissed and we get the bond money back!!!

HOLD ME DOWN YALL

NEVER FEAR!!
YOUR GIRL IS STILL HERE!!!
MY MOM IS IN TOWN AND I'LL BE PICKIN K.D UP WED *YAY!*
SOOOO....IM'A HAVE TO GET BACK TO Y'ALL!!
BUT YA' KNOW I'LL DO MY BEST TO LEAVE COMMENTS AND CHECK MY PEOPLE OUT.
LOVE YA' MUCH!
*SMOOCHES*
LOVE YA' MUCH!!

Oh NO She DIDNT

A LETTER TO SANAA LATHAN

Now looky here trick,

You may have caught the "hollywood" bug and popped a Valium before your appearance at the NAACP Image Awards, but, that doesnt mean you can just COMPLETELY disregard the fact that you had the GIFT of HONORING A LEGEND WHO PAVED THE WAY FOR ALL BLACK TALENT TODAY!!

The fact that you read off the teleprompter without the NOTION to give her PERSONAL praise **which ya' should have ya' ungrateful traullup!!** PISSES ME OFF TO NO AVAIL!!

**deep sigh** I am an art lover who would DIE to be in her presence **well, not EXACTLY die, but yo' punk ass get my point**

To sit and talk to such an accomplished talented black woman is a dream to me at this point in my life.

I would be so honored to be ASKED to present this award to her!!

WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM?!?!?!

Has Hollywood JADED to a self indulgent matter?!?!

Thats the vibe I was getting!!

There would be NO WAY IN HELL Id let ANYONE mess my mood up to the point where Id disrespect someone SO worthy of my praise!!

With that said *because my tangent will only get worse if I continue*
Realize and appreciate those that came before you,who had it NOT been for them: The Ruby Dee's, The Sydney Poitiers,The Ossie Davis's, The Diane Carol's, just to name a few.
Dammit!! Those names ALONE should put yo' ass to shame for your blahzay reaction to such an AMAZING woman!!

If she WASNT one of your idols MAYBE yo' ass shouldve passed on presenting!!

Ho' Im just sayin'!!

Get yo' sh*t togetha!

Alyse a.k.a MsLady *ACT LIKE YOU KNOW!*


Yea..Im mad! Who saw the awards tonite??
Who saw how whack she was??
*sigh* Alright Im a bit dramatic..but I respect sooo many legends and cant STAND when an ungrateful person gets the opportunity that would mean a HELLUVA lot more to someone else!!

CONGRATS TO THE LEGENDARY RUBY DEE
(You looked amazing tonite!)

Brought Tears To My Eyes

KANYE...NEED I SAY MORE??

My heart ACHED for Kanye trying to get through this song.
I just wanted to make sure my blog fam' got to see the TALENT and ORIGINALITY that IS KANYE WEST

To top off a FIYAH performance for "Stronger" he came out and jerked at your heart strings.
I still feel his pain and wish him ALL the best in life.

He is what HipHop is lacking and that is originality and TALENT!!

Am I the only one that realizes his next album is going to be RI-DAMN-DICULOUS?!?!?!

I hope not.

Lata Babies!!

Dreams

So lately Ive been having some dreams that have caused me to worry a bit *the ones I remember atleast*

And I took note from one of my "everyday blog check outs" Ms Behavin' *Heeey Guuurl..lol* and went to www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary
and found out their meaning.

First dream....

King Kong

****STOP THE MO'FO PRESSES!!! BEFORE YOU READ ON..I PLAYED MYSELF SOO HARD AND KEPT CALLING KING KONG GODZILLA!! LMAO!! I HAD A WHOLE DIFFERENT PERCEPTION OF THIS DREAM...SOOO I AM NOW REALIZING WHAT THIS DREAM REALLY MEANS AT THIS VERY MOMENT!! ARE YOU FRIGGIN' KIDDING ME?!?!!?****

HERES WHAT HAPPENED..

MY MOTHER AND I *some other people I knew well..but you know how in your dream you know the people in it but cant pin point who is who?* were on top of a yellow bus and all the animals where running away b/c they saw King Kong and wasnt fkn with him.

My dmbass says to my mother "IF we dont move he wont see us" but he did and started yanking mo'fo's off the damn bus.

And....scene..lol

thats all I remember

HERE IS THE TRUE MEANING OF MY KING KONG DREAM......

Gorilla

To see a gorilla in your dream, suggests that you may be too "over the top" in your behavior. Perhaps you are compensating for your rigidity and stiffness in your waking life. Alternatively, the gorilla symbolizes your primitive impulses, wild nature and repressed sexual energy.

Woooow...
Repressed sexual energy huh??
That would explain the last post..lol.



Moving on!

EXPLOSIONS

I had a dream that I was holding Braylon and these kids *a whole bunch of kids* where lighting firecrackers and throwing them EVERYWHERE. It got to the point where it was so much that it led to a HUGE explosion. THAT one freaked me out a bit..anytime I dream and fire is involoved it usually scares me.

Explosion

To see explosions in your dream, signifies a loss and displeasure in business. It may also mean that your repressed emotions and rage have come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner.

To dream that your face becomes blackened or mutilated by the explosion, signifies that will be confronted with unjust accusations and may suffer the consequences.

To dream that you are enveloped in flames or blown up into the air by an explosion, forewarns that unworthy friends will violate your rights and abuse your confidence.

To hear the sound of a loud explosion, but you did not see it, signifies that your troubles will soon be replaced with tranquility after you have overcome some small obstacle.

All of it pertains to me

BEING PREGNANT..AGAIN!

So this last one was me and K.D in my our bedroom and he is sitting on the bed while Im standing. I look to him and say "Babe, Im pregnant again" All he did was lay across the bed and said absolutely nothing. I stand there confused And...scene

Pregnant

To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal.

To dream that you are pregnant with the baby dying inside of you suggests that a project you had put a lot of effort into is falling apart and slowly deteriorating. Nothing works out the way you want it to.

If you are really pregnant and having this dream, then it represents your anxieties about the pregnancy. Women in the first trimester of their pregnancy tend to dream of tiny creatures, fuzzy animals, flowers, fruit and water. In the second trimester, dreams will reflect your anxieties about being a good mother and concerns about possible complications with the birth. Dreams of giving birth to a non-human baby are also common during this period of the pregnancy. Finally, in the third trimester, dreams consists of your own mother. As your body changes and grows, dreams of whales, elephants and dinosaurs and other larger animals may also start appearing at this stage.

This is the one I felt really good about *go figure..being that I THOUGHT it meant I was having a 3rd!!* because so many things within me are changing for the better and I feel AWESOME about it!



Well guys, that'll do for today. Sorry if I bored anyone..my dreams have been worrying me and I just thought I'd share.

The Man VDay

REPPIN' FO' MY FELLAZ

Okay so I came across this from one of the Vlogs I watch on Youtube.

This chick put a link as well as a Vlog about "Steak and Blowjob Day"

Okaaaay...

I guess I cant be mad because V-Day IS about the ladies and whatnot..men dont really get a kick out of it.

That day is their day,,cant really argue with that ladies.

Soooo...

*presidential music playing in the background*


As of today


I AM OFFICIALLY A PARTICIPANT ON MARCH 13TH

STEAK AND BJ DAY

*APPLAUSE..AND..EXIT*

(AM i BECOMING A BIT MUCH FOR YOU GUYS?? iM JUST BEING ME..LOL*WINK*)

Alone On Valentines Day

My V'Day is going to SUCK!!!

My babes doesnt arrive til' the following Sat/Sun *we havent fully decided yet..its 1 of the 2* I mean..We can celebrate then but it wont be the same and LAWD knows we wot have "alone" time with the babies hangin about. This here will just be taken as a lose.

*sigh* Oh well..

Atleast I'll git some!

I DID IT

I MADE MY BLOG ROLL!!
THANX Y'ALL!

Duh

HELP?

Maybe Im not applying myself.
But...
How do I make a "Blog Roll"??
*sigh* Im so confused...

HELP Y'ALL!!

Body Image

Heeey My Lovely's!!



Ive had a few things on my mind regarding the fact that I have a TOTAL of 23 lbs to lose to get back the my pre-pregnant weight *sigh*

So....

Im feeling a bit "Eh" latley because ya' gurl was FEELIN' ha' self when I walked past the mirror *mirror* around that time.

I mean I wasnt all BLADOW and all LEAN in ish



Because I LOVE my thickness and it was SOO profound pre-pregnancy *having flashbacks n ish*

(Im soo pear shaped...1st on the left)

I spoke to my Mom *my ROCK* and she has to have this operation AGAIN that scares the ish outta me! Im soo worried because IM the one the usually takes care of her at times like these. The fact that Im so far away KILLS me.
My point, the Doc said that what is causing the things to reappear *its a female thang fellas, thats mostly why I wont elaborate as well as the fact that Mom dukes caint STAND her business be OUT there* is related to weight and what have you.
Now, my Mom is the type that holds ALOT in and when she's stressed she will LET IT OUT in her sleep talk. Soooo....her man was like she was tossing and turning and fighting in her sleep and out the blue says "YOU BETTER GET CHECKED OUT ALYSE!! GO TO THE DOCTOR!!"
When she told me this I was like "Damn, this is more serious than she tried to lead me to believe" she doesnt like me to worry about but her, but she's my Mother, how can I NOT!!
Sooo...with that said I am on my way to doing what I gotta to get rid of the "excess" I dont want my kids to go through this.

Also!
My family has a history of cancer in the "female areas" and it scares me so bad.
I gotta get my mind right and feel good about my health as well as my body image
Both sides of my families have serious heart problems as well and that freaks me out too.

I gotta get right y'all




Lata Lovely's!!

Appreciation

A Lil' Sumthin' For You Guys
You truly make a difference in my life :-}

***yea yea yea..I know Im look CRAZY!!! still just wanted to show my appreciation***

Made A Wrong Turn

Ok. Im supposed to be doing my FAFSA forms for school *got it open in another tab* and Im listening to Erykah Badu's Mama's Gun *shout out to Don for reminding me of the HOTNESS that is this album* and I realize that "Didnt Cha Know" is RIGHT where my soul is right now! I was like wait....play that one mo' time leese and LISTEN to what she is saying. And I said to myself, Im sooo feeling like I made a wrong turn in my life right now. A turn that seemed wrong and at the same time was very good for my spirit.
I feel a new me has arrived
A more mature me
I like this ME because she's patient and knows what life has to offer.
Shes focused on the important things in life
She's signed up for school!!! Yesss!!! Finally!!!
Im realizing what it is I have to do and I love it!

But...

The wrong turn was coming here with the notion that my life and the kids lives would be better off.
When I finally woke up out my "self revelation" doze, I looked around me and saw that if you already have the financial backing and/or have dream for something artistic or even business wise,other than that..Atlanta is NOT for YOU *I fall into OTHER*
I looked into the education and I see that they hold their students back.
Now Im not one to gloat, but, my son is very sharp at the age of 3, people dont believe me when I say he is 3 yrs old b/c he can hold a full conversation with you and a few days later remember that EXACT conversation, sh*t he'll tell you something you said and you have no recollection of it at all. Boy'll have you going "Ooooh, I DID say that huh?"
Anyways, I found out that some counties start their children in pre-K at the age of 5 YEARS OLD!!
ARE YOU SH*TTIN' ME?!?!
5 YEARS OLD?!?!
My son can start Kindergarten NOW!! And pass with FLYIN' FUGGIN COLORS!!!
That right there was enough for me to go home, pack my ish and be on the NEXT THANG SMOKIN' back to Ct.
I even looked at the tallying of education all over America and Georgia is quite low.
I cant do that to my babies, if Shamarr is this smart now, imagine what when he gets older AND what I'll go through with Braylon.
That just makes me sick to my stomach, it makes me feel Georgia WANTS people to NOT succeed so they ENSURE your lack of development.
Now, thats not to say that the people here are dumb, thats not where Im leading this post AT ALL.
Its to say that Georgia is not what it used to be.
Its for folk that want to party away and for folk that have the duckets to do what they please.
So if you are well off and love ATL by all means, do you.
As for me??
Im headed back North.

Lata Lovelys!!


****Sidebar these are MY thoughts in MY blog..you Georgia bred?? you dont like it?? THEN JUST BEAT IT BEAT BEAT IT BEAT IT!! Aight?? Aight****