I feel like I have transformed into the "Me" that Ive been muffling for soo long.
I say this because..I used to go out often and smoke trees ALOT!!
Never the less my child was taken care of and it was ALWAYS a once a weekend thang.
But....
I feel like I have truly changed guys.
I used to go out because I was unsatisfied with my relationship.
It was around the time where Id SAY that he wasnt doing this or wasnt giving me that..and I felt like I couldnt talk to the man I loved/the man who claimed to love me.
Soo..
I thought getting REAL FLY and stepping out on the town was suffice.
No..
I went out last nite with my "New" self and felt soo out of place..the WHOLE time I just wanted to go home and hold Braylon y'all and call my oldest on the phone.
NO LIE!!
I just wanted my Chocolate Little Monster to smile and coo in my face and hear Shamarr send me kisses through the phone rather than the foo's that was up in there last nite. ::SMH::
I love ALL EVERYWHERE and I dont discriminate but WHY does it seem like my people from the South are stuck in a time warp??
I REALLY wanted to take the ladies shopping and GET THEM SOMETHING THAT COMPLIMENTED THEIR BODY SHAPE!!
And the fellaz??
You dont go out looking like you just got out of bed and said "Hey, I thank I wanna go to da' club"
Aaaanyhoooo...
I truly feel that "change" in me..I am actually content with my relationship and the fact that we ARE going to argue and not see eye to eye on EVERYTHING..but..hey..that makes for SPECTACULAR make up sex ::WINK::
Im happy y'all and there is NOTHING a club with a HOT MESS man or even a SEXXY ass one can do for me.
I am all about my family and proud of it.
